He needs to let go!

Yes I know I'v used another baby picture to illistrate a new post, but it was all I could find. Anyhow here gos.
A long while ago i began to hang out with someone I had met online. He lived little more than an hour from me and what the heck I liked meeting people. He lived near Seattle so we had many places we could go. Game works and the movie thearter are just a few I remember going to.
Well the more I hung out with him the more I liked him. Of corse you know I do not like to use real names so lets call him Rodd. Rodd was a funny guy, strange, fun to hang out with, was sweet to me and didn't look bad to the eye at all.
At times I would stay over at his house and we would watch South Park or something funny he had found online...etc.
Well I had started to fall for him despite the fact he was 10 years older than me. When we met I was probably 18, so he was 28, but it didn't bother me. Well my affection for him grew everytime we hung out. I would always stay at his place but he would never come over to my appartment, using the excuse that there wasn't anything fun to do.
So I took that as a signal that he wasn't interested in starting a relationship. So I moved on to find someone else that might be interested in more than just friends. Of corse Rodd didn't know my feelings and thought everything was cool. Not too long after that I started to fall for another friend I'll call Bill. I had known Bill about just as long as I had known Rodd. Only Bill lived in New Mexico so I never got to see him unless he flew/drove up to Washington state to see his parents. But Bill would be up there for weeks at a time and eventually I started to fall for him, and for once he also started feeling that way for me as well.
Well out of no where one day Bill asked me to move with him to New Mexico, I was so excited I said I sure would.
When I told Rodd he got upset and begged me to stay, but I didn't I felt that I was in love and had to move. So I did and for a little over a year I lived in New Mexico, that turned out to be a mistake. About 3 months after I moved down there Bill started treating me bad. Not only that but Rodd was mad that I didn't stay up in Washington. I wasn't getting hit or anything it was all mental and I fell for it all.
Bill would ignore me when I was crying, he didn't give me alot of the attention I craved. He seemed to use me for money and he even wrecked my car and told me to take the blame for it so his insurance wouldn't go up.
Bill also had a special love for the internet porn, he would look at it when I was home and once I even cought him with trou to the floor jerkin it. He acted like there was nothing wrong with it, he even eventually went on walks at night. I figured he was cheating on me and to this day I don't doubt it. Rodd and I continued to talk alot while I was gone I could tell that he liked me and hoped that I would move back soon.
Bill and I were kinda low on money alot so it was decided that I would move back to Washington and wait for him to finish college. He got free room and board so no rent money would have to be paid. So I move back home, move into a house with my cousin Willow and her brother whom I'll call Bo. It was fun and I had a great job working in green houses tending to plants and driving tractors.
Well out of the blue one day Bill called me and decided that he wanted to take a break from me. I lost it, I cried and asked why. I didn't understand what I had done. Then it burst into my head that I was not to blame that he was the one treating me bad and he didn't deserve me. So I told him that if he wanted a break that I would make it perminate. Then I told him I couldn't talk to him anymore and hung up the phone.
When Rodd found out about this he became extreamily happy that I was single again. But me being single lasted about 3 days. Turns out an old friend/roomie I use to live with that joined the Navy showed up on my door step about 10 minutes after I called it off with Bill. The man I'll call Don was always so good to me and was someone I thought was so wonderful in everyway. The only reason I never made a move on him was the fact that growing up and all through highschool I never had a boyfriend. Guys didn't see me that way, I was always the buddy. I liked Don so much that I never wanted to lose him, even if it ment I would always be the friend.
Now I have 3 men that want me, which is odd because I'm no looker. I'm funny and cool to hang out with...oh maybe they wanted me for my personality? What ever they saw in me all 3 were smart men heheheheh.
Well, the third day of hanging out with Don I had had enough, I kissed him and he kissed back. We have been togeather ever since. (Married August 17, 2003)
But poor Rodd was not happy about this new found love of mine, he went from being my friend to turning into a complete jerk. Suddenly I was a horrible person, and that I hadn't given him a chance. I could never get through to him that he did have a chance but he never took it.
Eventually (about a year or so later) Rodd finally let it go, or so I thought, we began talking on Yahoo messinger again. I don't like to lose friends so thats why I continued to talk to him. Every once in a while he would bring up the past and he would ask me what it would have been like if he had proposed to me.
It dawned on me that he wouldn't let me go, and now hes pouting about it and I may just have to stop talking to him. Its been years since hes even seen me but I had such a huge impact on his life that he seems to think he still has a chance with me.
It would be nice to see him move on, I'm very happy with my marriage, but sometimes think my husband Don will stop loving me. He tells me that would never happen. Then again Bill told me we would grow old togeather. But Don is different, he is everything I have ever wanted and I love him so much.
I just hope after 2 years of wonderful marriage Don knows that I have the ball and chain on him and hes not getting away. Love you!
Lillys rating: If there was a slap involved we would have a hit soap opera!

Halloween grinches

Well its about that time where dressing up as what ever you want to and not look crazy or strange to the norm folk is upon us.
Halloween is my favorite day, no matter how old I get.
This year I had planned on dressing up in crazy colors and make-up and call myself the Rainbow Queen. Alas my plans were foiled by the evil Halloween grinches of Target. We were told that there would be no dressing up this year. Thanks alot way to ruin a fun holiday for everyone. Months and months of planning and searching Ebay for costume ideas. Getting a purple wig with multicolor extensions. Buying fake eyelashes, long rainbow socks that go up the thy. I pretty much went all out for this one. Why? Well because I would be in the public eye for many hours. I would have been working in my store all decked out in my walk-a-wear.
I'm in pout mode right now, and as for the baby up there, I thought it would be nice to show what Target will do to little babies when they won't see their favorite cashiers dressed up this year.
Well that and thats how I'm feeling about this whole thing, like a crying baby.
I may just request the day off.
Lillys rating: Target makes little children cry.

Paper or plastic ........shirt??

Yikes! Ebay ugly appears again to rear its fugly head. This one cought my attention as I was on the hunt for Halloween inspirations. This year I have decided to go as the Rainbow queen. (If you all are nice I'll post a pic of me in my costume)
Anyhoot, I was about to scroll past this fascinating top when I did a double take and noticed it looked like it had a plastic coat.
When I looked at the picture in a larger size I was still unsure of what I was seeing.
I was planning on asking the seller what was up with it but then it wouldn't have been very fun for you now would it?
If you are curious, yes it sold for a mind boggling $4.85 (+$4.65 S&H)
Maybe Willow can kill it with her new and imporved swiffer.
Lillys rating: Immune to water

How I Outsmarted Swiffer

So I was mopping my floor with my Swiffer Wet Jet, when the damn device ran out of the Swiffer Fluid contained in the beautiful purple bottle. Of course I didn't have a replacement, but I reckoned I would unscrew the cap and fill it up with a lovely Simple Green solutions. Unfortunately purple and green do not mix, because the swiffer fluid container does not unscrew.

Swiffer now exemplifies everything that is wrong with America. There is a perfectly good container, that could be inserted into the Swiffer over and over. Swiffer could sell a concentrated mixture that could be poured into this wonderful "reusable" container. But no, we Swifferee's are forced to constantly throw away the purple bottle and buy a new purple bottle courtesy of 3$.

Well I, using American ingenuity mixed with a little country girl common sense have solved this environmentally destructive gimmack of the Swiffer Corporation. I took my all purpose steak knife and gouged a hole into the bottom of my purple bottle and filled the damn thing with a Simple Green solution. I WIN!! Ha ha Swiffer. I will never again be forced to buy your Fluid.

Now if I can only figure out how to attach my worn out rewashable towels to where the pads go I will be the Queen of the floor mopping conservationists!!
Aha, Duct Tape.